Sunday, April 26, 2015

Deep in This Head of Mine - Sunday, April 26

Saturday Night - Taking in a few moments of silence

I prayed a lot yesterday.  I cried.  I worried.  I felt like throwing up.

First, the earthquake in Nepal.  A coworker/friend has been studying in the area since January.  I was worried and frightened that she might have been one of the thousands to have died.  She was just in Kathmandu on Thursday, where the earthquake hit and 'we' had no idea where she was after that.  This morning one of her friends posted that she is fine and will reach out when she can.  Thank you, God.

Then.  The horrid news that a young girl from our small school community committed suicide Friday night.  Ug......  Thirteen years old.  A brother found her and tried to administer CPR.  The responders were all locals.  Volunteers.  Fellow parents and neighbors.  This is small town America. Something like this hits hard when everyone one, knows everyone. And news travels fast.  Jake said she was the smartest girl in her class and he had no idea why she would do this.  She was one year younger than him.  Poor sweet soul.  Poor sweet brothers, sisters, mother, father, friends, teachers. 

My kids, Thank God, seem to be processing this 'well'.  Unfortunately, they were introduced to death at an early age.  Sami is friends with one of the older brothers, so she is closer to the family than Jake or I.   So, in my head I crawled yesterday.  Wondering what on earth could have been going on in her life that she felt the need to end it?

Praying for all.  Taking moments of silence.  And listening to God's whisper.

Tuesday, April 7, 2015

A Lovely Easter... and God's Not Dead

Hot Cross Buns - From Kneads Bakery

Easter Lily - From my Guy

My Commute Home.  Sigh. I love falling into the sky

Good Friday - The doors were locked

Preparing our Dinner - Menu was Leg of Lamb, Scallop Potatoes, Caesar Salad

Easter morning Treats for the Kids (who are teens)

Easter Breakfast
I love Easter.
A large part of my life has been about 'do-overs' and second chances.
The Resurrection sings to me. 
On Friday at noon I picked up goodies from Kneads Bakery in La Grande, then went to the local Catholic Church to have a moment of silence.  The door was locked.  So much for having my private moment. So, I had it in my car.
 For Easter I made dinner Saturday night because the kids are with their dad on Sundays.  They leave at about 7am.
Sunday I had the option of skiing with friends - last day up at the Mountain, or having a day with myself.
I chose the latter.
After doing a few chores - fixing the weather stripping on the front door, vacuuming, and getting cat hair off of the furniture, I realized I could still make Mass if I hustled.
So, I hustled.
I even showered and wore a dress.
 Mass was beautiful. Our church in Baker is beautiful.
I was in heaven.  Close to heaven.  And I loved it.
The weather was a rain/snow mix so I was glad I made the choice to not ski.
And, when I got home, I had Easter Dinner, a glass of red wine, and watched God's Not Dead. Sami watched it the day before and she said it was good and that I should watch it.
It gives me hope that she may feel the call of God, afterall.
My kids don't attend church or pursue their faith.
I have told them it's their own spiritual journey, and that I hope they do make that choice.
I have told them, whenever they feel alone in this world, to pray to God.  And to know he is always there.  
I think they are getting closer.
And, thus.  God's Not Dead!
In his name.
Peace, my friends.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Ides of March 2015 (Beware?)

I had a rough couple of weeks.  Sitting here now, on Sunday, March 15th, snotty as can be. 

Glad Wrap Mishap - How it All Started

Week #1 Was Full of Craziness:  Wrote two grants that were not on my list of things to do and which were 'due now'.  Could have been better planned by those who should have been 'on it'. As in two weeks earlier!  And, cleaned up a major mess in the women's restroom at work because no one else was able or willing. That's a story in itself.  Yet, not appropriate to make public.  So by Friday?  I was ready to get out of dodge.  Which I did. By taking a day off to ski.  That day was lovely. Sunshine, moonlight, no wind. We skied under both, BBQ oysters, and it was nice to be amongst adults.  It was the icing on the cake.  So well deserved after a 'crappy' week.  It was a full-moon week so no doubt the 'pull' had a lot to do with the week's events.

Gunsight Mountain behind Me

Cold Beverage after Skiing

My Christmas Setup - Downhill!

BBQ Oysters

Moonlit Dinner - Outdoor Style

Week #2:  And then... I got sick.  Week long stuff:  Sore throat, which started Saturday night, followed by cough, snot.snot.snot.snot.  And still snot. Sick leave here and there, tried to work when I could, blech.

So, Ides of March?  Yeah.  Whatever.  I'm so ready for a better week after these last two.  Please!

Sunday, March 1, 2015

Hello March 2015! Recap of a Crazy Saturday in the life of a Single Mom

No, this is not what it looks like here.  I borrowed this from a friend.  

Today is March 1st.  We were given a beautiful, sunny, 26 degree day.
I stayed home all day. Did not drive anywhere.  Did not go outside. Did not ski.  Exhausted from yesterday. Here's the long story:

Yesterday was a crazy, hectic, busy, 'go crazy' life of a single mom day:

  • Up at 4am.  Only because I was stressing about the day's upcoming to-do list.
  • Registered my daughter for a trip to Spain for her graduation gift - next spring.  More on that later.  Signed my life away.
  • Made breakfast for kids.  Yummy stuff: yogurt w/ fruit; Andoulle Cajun chicken sausage and scrambled eggs. 
  • Left at 8am for Baker - 10 miles away: Hair, Groceries, and bird food for the wild things that visit each morning.
  • Sami left at 9 am for the school, and team bus to Condon, Oregon
  • Home at 11:  Made to go snacks and left on a 3.5 hour drive to Condon:  State Playoffs
  • Road trip.  Carpooled with some great friends and their 6th grade son.  Picked up college daughter in Pendleton (this is important later).
  •  Watch our girls, including my daughter play their last basketball game of the season - last because they lost.  Heart-wrenching but we had a GREAT turnout in fans.  Our school sent a fan bus.  Gotta love the team spirit in our small rural school (note to self: send letter of gratitude to the powers that be). But the girls did get to win this last Wednesday on their home court.  That is good. Especially for our Seniors.
  •  Drive to Pendleton.  Van passengers increased with Sophomore daughter of family that played in the game.  At at a rest stop I got to witness the crazy antics of this family.  Sophomore wanted to ditch dad and bro at rest stop. Plan was to just go around the back side. But she drove the family van to the exit which would have gotten us on the hwy - she had to backup - she hit a curb.  Not a good driver.  We were laughing and dying from sucking air. Dad? Not so amused.  He got to watch the entire thing on his walk to the van. But boy, was he a good sport!  He said something about not forgetting. This family is NUTS. Mine seems really normal now.
  • Out to dinner with crazy family.  At a Mexican Restaurant. In Pendleton.  College girl's fiance joins us. The antics only got better.  Son and Sophomore daughter had a hot sauce eating contest.  Son won.  Wedding plans.  Daughters. Son narrating what everyone was thinking.  Oh my.
  •  Stop in North Powder at kid's school to get sophomore daughter's car.  She is sleeping.  Mom gets out to get it so don't have to get it in morning (7 miles out of town and wrong way). Dad drives off, turns around, and mom is standing in road waving. Car won't start.  Good thing we didn't leave her!  Sophomore daughter has habit of leaving dome light on.  Battery is dead.
  • Home at 10:30 pm - my darling well behaved daughter arrived soon after.  Darling well behaved son is home, safe, doing his own thing. No wild parties (heck, all his friends were at the game!).  My kids seem so mellow in comparison to crazy family.
  • Registered myself for same trip to Spain. While at the game two moms were giving me a hard time about not registering now.  I planned to signup later, in November, when funds are more solvent.  They thought there was another payment plan. I gave in to peer pressure.  I promised to sign up when I got home.  Deadline for a discount was last day of Feb.  So, REALLY have now signed my life away! 
  • Slept blissfully knowing that yes, I survived the day, and was reminded of how lucky I am!

 Photo Share:
This lenten season I am wearing my special crucifix, that I rec'd from my G. Avis's collection

Rosie and my breakfast. Yogurt, banana, frozen raspberries. Quality time at the computer.

Found in daughter's laundry basket.  Basketball shoes.  Season is over.

Domestic Goddess Fail.  Chocolate kiss went through washer and drier.  Really, it was a kiss. with a nut inside. Now round from the machines. And yes, I got to clean out the drier. And redo a load of whites. This fine Sunday.

Sunday, January 25, 2015

Sunday Musings. January 25th, 2015.

Sami finding a big valentine at the Grocery Store

Rosie assisting me with my OLW homework last Sunday
Jake:  Getting Ready to Ski - MLK Day

Sami - Learning to Snowboard on MLK

Me.  Snowshoeing after Skiing.  On MLK Day

View from the kitchen window. MLK morning

Addressing Thank You Cards (Christmas)

Sami - Last weekend's game

Lights before pulling the plug.  this morning.
Photos are just some of my faves from the past week or two. 

It's Sunday.
The kids have already left for the ranch. 

So far I have: cleaned the bathroom (including the tub and shower - which I hate), cooked and cleaned up after breakfast, drank a pot of coffee, cleaned out the fridge, cleaned the kitty box, pulled the plug on the Christmas lights, filled out Sami's basketball photo order, filled out a volunteer signup sheet for Jake's class (Feb 7 Nacho Feed during BB games), tossed in a load of laundry, uploaded my phone photos, and attempted some online shopping - but gave up.

It's only 9:00 am.

This is my life.  I wake early, and crash early.

And I am working on my word 'Be'. 

Being in the moment.
Being Still.
Being available to the kids.
Being true to myself. 

And since it is Sunday, I am going to take it nice and easy for the rest of the day, and enjoy my time alone in my craft room.

Have a great one!

Saturday, January 10, 2015

Happy New Year! Welcome to 2015 and my New One Little Word. Be.

Wheel Line - Along Hwy 30, Between Haines and North Powder (Jan. 10)

Early Morning Drive - Jan. 10 2015

Today is January 10th, 2015.

Where Am I?

In my little house, in a rural town of 300, in Eastern Oregon, and still in my jammies.  I love Saturdays like this.

However, I have already driven up and down the two lane road, in my jammies, on black ice to take Kid #1 to get to the school to teach a basketball camp for little kids.  Eight miles away.  We were late (teen daughter does not like to move in the mornings).  We left at 7:55ish, and the camp started at 8 am. So I was going 70 mph.

I know it's black ice, because I 'tested' my new studded tires when I braked at a stop sign, and slid, but happily stayed in my lane, and didn't go over the line too far. I'm calling this a 'win'.

And, it's a foggy day, and 28 degrees. January is our inversion month.  Warm and sunny up at Anthony Ski Resort - 17 miles up the road, cold and nasty and icy in the hood. 

Which brings us to Kid #2. He is recuperating from a ski accident from yesterday (first day on his new ski's, he broke one ski brake while coming down Starbottle Run and going too darn fast).  I'm a little miffed because this was Day #1 of 8 days of our local ski program.  Hope he can continue.  His knee is not feeling good. But he isn't screaming in pain, or crying, and he looks fine.  So I am considering this another win.  No broken bones - and he can walk and talk.Well, limp.  He limps.

 I have chosen my OLW for 2015.  It's Be.

To Be still, Be me, Beleive, look for the Beauty in all things, and to Let it Be.
And yes, I am taking Ali's One Little Word Class.

And Today's Line Up:
Interestingly, I thought today was going to be a nice lazy day. Turns out.. I'll be running!  But, in the spirit of my new word, I am letting it all just Be! 

  1. Kid#1 has a 1pm game. Varsity Girls.  She then has to work concessions all day. Followed by movie night with her posse at her boyfriend's casa.
  2.  Kid #2:  Finished taking down all the garland and bows off my white picket fence.  Sniff.  So long Christmas.  And he is laying low.  Injuries and computer time.
  3. Helping a friend with a display board for her daughter who is on our local rodeo's  court - judging happens on Jan. 31st.  Thank Goodness for A roomful of scrap crap and my Cameo silhouette!
  4. Dinner in town tonight with one of my favorite coworkers/friend and his wife - Barley Brown's!  Best place in Baker, in my opinion.
Ta da!
Photos above are from this morning's drive.

Saturday, October 4, 2014

WCMD With a Moxie Fab Challenge 

Today is WCMD and all sorts of challenges are going on.   After a day of self imposed honey do's around the house (single mama, been gone a week = boatloads of chores), I finally made a card. :) 

Above is a sketch from the Moxie FAB blog: Moxie FAB WCMD Sketch Challenge

Back story: This past week I was in Bend, Oregon for work, and a good friend watched my kittie Rosie, once again!  This is about the third time Katie has come to my rescue to check in on my gato.  And, I am overdue for giving a sweet thank-you gift (chocolates from a super cute little store in Downtown Bend) and card.  So, with that, I was inspired by the sketch. I actually love the way the patterned papers worked with this sketch.

Here is my interpretation (followed to the T, need a card quick!):

WCMD Moxie FAB Challenge Card

 Goodies Used:
Stamps: Kitty:Inkadinkadoo (MEOW collection); Sentiment: Paper Smooches (Sentiment Sampler)
Cardstock, patterned paper (Fancy Pants Beloved collection), vellum:  Simon Says January 2014 Card Kit
Enamel Dot: MME Now and Then 

My kittie is orange and white.  So that's her, giving her personal thanks to Katie! Why yes, I will 'sing it' for her:)

Happy WCMD my crafty friends!